anknick

Waking up at 7.15 on a Sunday morning to my mobile phone chiming annoyingly, I find the most exciting thing that has happened to me in a while now. My idol's girlfriend had liked his portraits on my instagram and had also commented that I capture him perfectly and that i might steal him away from her. She's such a sporting spirit that I was wide awake and too damn excited to go back to sleep anytime soon. Though i had a late saturday night and went back to sleep an hour later. hehe. 
Then later on I came to deviantart and noticed that for the first time in a long time, one of my deviations has more than 0-2 comments. And my page views has crossed 5000! 
Later on I'm going for The Martian with my friends. 

1. How long have you been on DeviantArt? - It's been 4 years. 
   
   
   

2. What does your username mean? - Its an amalgamation of my name Ankita and Backstreets Boys' Nick Carter because i was a die hard fan then. <_< 
   
   

3. Describe yourself in three words. - The Unsatisfied One 

4. Are you left or right handed? Right Handed.

5. What was your first deviation? It was a color pencil portrait of the guitarist (Nao) of the Japanese Visual kei band, heidi.   

6. What is your favourite type of art to create? Semi-Realistic Digital Art and Photorealistic portraits. 
   
   

7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be? Water colors! I'm almost hydrophobic in that aspect 

8. What was your first favourite?   This beauty by screamteddy Because watercolors look so pretty!

9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most? Mostly conceptual digital art of fantasy charcaters

10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist? mittilla

11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be? probably again mittilla! 

12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life? It's not been any one particular person but the entire community has made me want to improve my art and learn various tips and techniques and also I've found lots of reference material from the resources!

13. What are your preferred tools to create art? Paint Tool SAI, Bamboo Create and Copic markers!

14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art? My Bed hehe

15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory? I did an art trade with :devacateleptic-thoughts:

I have been told by a quite a lot of people that I'm talented but i am the kind of person, who is both incapable of dealing with compliments as well as criticism. That's a bad trait to have. But that's just me, though, i will try hard to learn to cope with the awkwardness i feel. Coming to the point, recently, I have started to notice that I've gotten better, so, this should boost up my low self confidence right? Instead, i feel like, emotionally, I'm still back to square one. That is of because lack of comments or reviews of any kind on my deviations or even tumblr posts. No matter how much I tell myself that it's okay, but it still affects me greatly. I thought I would not post it anywhere cuz it sounds pathetic to even me. But even the deviant poll this month is about such a thing. 
Anyway, what i think i should do is just take what I'm getting but not lose sight of myself. I must not kill my motivation because i did not get the response that i might have been expecting when i submitted something.
I am really starting to uplift my spirit. Maybe i should stop posting stuff because i want some kind of response to it. I should start doing it because i want to share it to the world. What the people who see it, do with it, is purely their choice and i should not let that get to me. 
I'm going to draw for myself, because i want to improve my anatomy, improve my coloring, develop newer styles, represent newer ideas. It really needs to be that. So I will harden up myself and keep working hard! As tehy say, patience is always fruitful. 
And thank you to all who take the time to respond to my art in some way, by faving or commenting on it! 

Well, I've just decided that I would try to be a little more positive towards my artworks. I may not be any close to the standards I have set for myself. The artists whom i admire and who inspire me, I must really take inspiration from them and draw more, rather than drowning myself in depression >_>
I can see I have improved when it comes to the human body *cough*blame porn*cough* My progress is probably slow because I dont get as much time as I'd like to devote to art.
I won't give up. Thats the main point actually. LOL OTL
Another thing I've observed is that things need not be correct, its the aesthetics which has to be pleasing.
So... wish me all the best!
Also, am eagerly waiting for the GazettE to announce the availability of MELT! I'd have to check first though if Dad still gonna buy it for me as a late bday present >.>

I keep forgetting to update my journal.. well, cuz nobody really reads them.. XD
Anyway, Happy new year everyone and hope this year turns out to be a good drawing year for me..
My resolution this year is to somehow manage to buy THE DECADE Limited Edition.. I dunno how I'll do it though.. Let's see what happens..
I hope that I'll improve in this year and come a little in comparison to certain someone.. long shot though.. >__>